The Other Something Else

Well I had another post planned but I have thought about something else. I once had a girl I was getting to know. LIke most things in my life it did not last long. But something she said really hit home. I get bored easy. And you know that is true. I do get bored easy. Right now I would like nothing better then to move a thousand miles from here and start over. Today I screwed up putting in a dc. Not to hard for most people. But damnit I did not let the dns zone transfer go thru. And I don't like that. I don't have anyone to learn this stuff from. And you know I would like it if at work I could have some old crap computer to do this stuff on before I kill million dollar networks. But when I do the same stuff everyday it gets old. I sit at my desk hoping something will break at a customer site just so I can go out there and fix it. No wonder I can't hold on to a relationship. Maybe it is time to start saving up so I can start over. I have had enough of the ham. There are to many ghost here now. I left this place once and came back. I don't think that I will do that again. I do know this. I got to get a better job if I am to do my part and support my woman. But then again I am a guy right and I can't take that cash with me. Maybe fix up the 67 Camaro. And to please kisea maybe buy a computer system that is not older then I am. Ouch I am guess I am really depressed tonight. Well you know as now people have more info then ever. We make more and more info. Do I think anyone is going to find this blog no. Do I care? NO. It is a nice way to let the blah of the day off. Tell the world I think my job sucks and all that stuff. And what I think of my computers and cars and well since I am nonPC what I think of the chicks of the world. Yo skin and bones put on some weight. You got to bounce when you move. Well maybe forget the cars and the chicks and the computers. I got a rem 700 I want and it would be nice to pop some caps at a range. No grapico for me tonight. I wish I had more to do. I enjoy the feeling I get when I have something helpful to add. It was just yesterday I was able to help the coder out with a rounding problem. No I did not help with the code but I knew where to ask the question. Yet today I get my ass chewed for some stupid crap. Yes I really do think it is time I change my habits again. Those people of my youth have gone. Either by me or by them it matters not but they are gone. I tell people I am into computers and that I have a job doing it but damnit I thought this would pay better. I have much thanks for the people I rent from. Not only do I have a house over my head but I have hot food and clean clothes from them. Very nice. Now only to find something or someone to kill the rest of my life with. Maybe I am not fit to be that boyfriend or husband. I don't think I would be good at it. To have to put yet another face on for someone. here it is my house. I choose to let you in. Here you have pulled a book from the shelf and are reading it. I have seen much at my young age. I have yet to see a quarter of a century go by. But here I am seems I have lived many lives. I finally stopped talking to someone I grew up with. I am now the outsider. Was it boring me I know not. But I know I did not like the feeling and wanted to be away from it. I need more people to speak to. When I had high speed I kept in many IRC channels. But when you really listen to people you hear either just pure bullshit or people just repeat the same thing. Yes I understand your fears are my fears. I want nothing but to be loved and wake up by someone special everyday. And to talk over dinner is a dream. But you would think with what some odd billions of people we would be able to find things to talk about. Here I am in the south and I see the same things everyday. And yet I feel there could be alot more. I spoke once of DRM and all that. Well with the music I like it is murder on the bank account. And yet I can't get the top 5 from that little club in hamburg,germany. It seems not to be at the local walmart. Sorry folks no comments from you. This is for me alone. I must go through the dark and black times of life. Maybe when the sun comes up tomorrow I will feel better. Maybe when the darkness comes life will be better. I will not know. OK music now. I would like to listen to some poor irish music from the teens. you know 1910's. I was at the titanic and they replayed music as one might hear from the docks. Very nice. A day that has passed never to come again. now someone might see why called this blog what I did. Either that or memory over the end of one of the Dr. Lector movies. Oh and what is this. Everyone has something to blame on something. Mine for today. I blame my bad spelling on this 11 year old keyboard. And I think it funny the more people I talk to about the RIAA and all the other groups with there shorts knotted about the illegal net transfers. Well the answers I get are well if they(producers of entertainment) would produce something worth listening to or watching maybe then I would buy it. And with this I agree. I enjoyed Dead Like Me. You think this got to stay on the air. why no. Just two seasons. And another is Nero Wolfe. just two seasons also. Maybe I have just horrible taste but I don't think so. Let people rot there brain out with what is on now. I will just go read a good book.

LP